05/21/2006

GameLifeGate

by Matthew Edward Hawkins

Wow… I’ve gotten a ton of attention over my last post, thanks primarily due it getting picked up by GameSetWatch.

If anything, I’m extremely embarassed over all the grammatical and spelling errors. But as I’ve said time and time again, I’m a writer that really needs an editor (plus it was well past my bedtime, and I guess all the mistakes show that). Also, in the end, I’m ultimately just doing a shitty little blog for all my friends, and while one of it’s aim is to pass along interesting news and whatnot (like this whole GameLife debacle, especially to all my comic book nerd friends who normally don’t about such stuff and like hearing about it second-hand), anyone who’s really look for absolutely professionally presented news should seriously be looking elsewhere. Hey, it’s a cop out I know, but in the end, you get what you paid for.

On a slight aside, its funny how when I sometimes write about hot topics, about five or so folks will set forward to provide pieces of supportive or contradicting information, often from a first hand perspective, such as how the GL guys have mild autism. And one thing I’ve heard constantly is that most of these people, whether it be Andrew or Melissa, are very nice. And I certainly don’t doubt it (though I don’t think that I ever said they were rude or jerks… though again, what Melissa may have done is an asshole-ish thing to do), hence why I began to feel sorta bad for certain things I wrote.

But then I realized, you know, everyone’s nice when you get down to it, even those that make jack-asses of themselves, including those are sorta ruining it for everyone else. Then I saw Melissa’s most recent attempt at attention whoring at the GAF. And then I saw this. So now, I don’t feel so bad.

I mentioned in my last post that I made changes here and there, mostly due to grammatical fuck ups, which despite my excuses, is still extremely embarrassing. But I’ve also decided to change the wording for a few other things, to get my message across clearer. I guess one inclination would be to take back thing, though that would be pointless since what I’ve said is out there and I can’t take anything back. Though the changes, if anything, makes me sound like an even bigger asshole than before.

Speaking of which, its seems once again that I’m despised by the denizens of the (Neo) Gaming Age Forums. Am I upset? Embrassed? Fuck No. Though I’m not smiling with glee or on some major ego trip-laced high. It just goes with the territory. But I do find it funny how one of my most vocal critics on those boards, that dude who’s semi-fixated on me and activities and who started drama with me a few months ago, at first the guy got on my case for reporting the news without citing the GAF as a source, now I’m given shit for “name dropping”! Once again, my site, nor the GAF isn’t fucking CNN…

Some seem puzzled or even agitated by how annoyed I am with Melissa’s possible attempt at fame and a paycheck by using something other than her intellect. Mainly because these are the types who go “Game journalism? LOL” Whatever. I find such behavior something of an insult to something I’m professionally involved in. Yeah, it’s a profession. What’s so hard to understand about this? Though burger flipping at McDonald’s is also a profession, so for some of you who feel that such a term is reserved for just doctors and the like should relax. Again, it’s jealously in the end… not necessarily at me, but the whole “Hey I can’t write about video games too! Why isn’t anyone paying me to do so?!?!?!”

As for my comments regarding Melissa’s actions, and the possible intentions behind them, what can I say? I guess I can’t feel too bad for passing judgement when I folks I know in real life seem to completely agree. Perhaps because many of them non-gamers, so they can see past much of the bullshit. Plus some of them are real life girls, and are sorta hoping that me talking about this will cost this chick that possible MTV job.

  • Westacular

    Huh? In that “neogaf hates you” thread, barely any comments mention your post, only two actually mention you, and only one of those comes off as negative. The guy just seems like an asshole for doing it, and he gets called on being an asshole later in the thread. I wouldn’t worry.

  • https://www.fort90.com Matt

    Yeah, I sorta exaggerate when I say NeoGAF hates me. But then again, since my post brought up a subject that many feel is not worth talking about (and I totally see that viewpoint), which is something I’ve been accused of doing before on different occasions much to certain people’s chagrin, and at least a few times around there, I’m not exactly a golden boy around those part either, at least in certain circles.

    As for the assholes in question, him and I have had our battle of words, and again, I think the guy’s sorta overly fixated on me (perhaps even obsessed?). If you’re reading this, hey Tony.

  • http://www.flickr.com/photos/kappuru kap

    Oh well. She’s riding the hype train of being a girl gamer who isn’t repulsive. (notice i didn’t say hot?)

    Her internet star will fall soon enough, unless she comes up with something more compelling than her “i’m a girl and i play games and pretend to be dead in myspace pictures” shtick.

  • http://www.super-combo.com James

    Lemme get this straight:

    1) Melissa films two video segments for GameLife, which she then mails into GameLife. They are filmed by her older boyfriend (as in older than Emma Watson, oh zing), who is into faked death porn and being “shocking”.

    2) Ziff Davis picks up GameLife. At E3, Geoff and Melissa are ignored by a karate-kicking moron set to interview them on behalf of 1up.

    3) Someone who is not Melissa finds boyfriend’s website, which is then emailed to UK: Resistance. Internet is stunned.

    4) Tinfoil hat brigade explodes on NeoGAF in a semi-misogynistic frenzy, and you write up and endorse said theories, netting some nice publicity for your website in the process. Since you lack breasts you cannot possibly be accused of attention whoring.

    5) Melissa makes her first proactive move in all this, posting on GAF a bit and making a shit movie response (Geoff has made a spinoff flick of his own, but again he isn’t a girl and cannot be pointed at and called an attention whore). This is siezed upon by you and others as “evidence” of more attention whoring. A photograph of her boyfriend snorting coffeemate off another girl alltogether‘s tits is also added to the “MELISSA IS A WHORE!” case file.

    So uh in conclusion: what the fuck are you talking about? Could you cite some of these “real life girls” that totally exist and everything? How is some weirdo digging into her personal life grounds to drag her name through the mud? Oh, that’s right – it isn’t. This is completely crazy and more than just slightly mysoginistic. Melissa isn’t a good host by any means – her delivery is upbeat but stiff, and entirely fitting with the tone of the show. Her interview with the creepy Rare guy was absolutely hysterical, at the very least. Where’s all this hate coming from? Somebody bitter they didn’t get a paid ride and press pass to E3?

    And no way is writing about videogames a profession, boss. A profession is an occupation that requires extensive training and the study and mastery of specialized knowledge, and usually has a professional association, ethical code and process of certification or licensing. Examples are accounting, law, medicine, finance, the military, the clergy and engineering. If games magazines required professionals, guys like Tim Rogers and Gillen would be reduced to hustling. It’s just some dudes making it up as they go along, really.

  • https://www.fort90.com Matt

    You know, I was all set to give you a detailed and in-depth response till I came across your “no way is writing about videogames a profession” comment.

    Why do I give a shit? For 10,000th time (its funny how you can deconstruct all my points so finely, yet ignore all my reasons for getting upset… its not like I haven’t outlined them about a dozen times already), I just can’t stand the idea of someone getting far in the business based on circus antics while those that are actually talented and deserve the spotlight get the shaft due to idiotic and superfluous reasons, like not being “hot” or some bullshit. Yes, it perhaps indicative of the sad state of affairs, but unless folks point such things, how else is the ball of change going to get started?

    Fuck, you write about games, don’t you want the whole field be something a little more than what is now, and filled with less idiots and assholes? Or should I say, what’s you’re beef with someone who wishes things were better? Oh, I’m sorry, you’re one of those guys who “just doesn’t care”. Hence why bitching about me bitching about something looks all the dumber. But given your tenacity to just argue for no real reason at Insert Credit… its hardly a surprise I suppose.

    Oh, and as for “real life girls” I speak of, its women I know from… you know… real life. Plus others whom I don’t know personally, though we have both spoken with at IC.

  • http://www.super-combo.com James

    Hey, I just want to preface this by saying I have no personal shit with you, I just think the conclusions you make are wrong and the process leading to them isn’t based on events and kind of imposes a double standard.

    If whoring for attention is so bad in journalism, should we kick Tim Rogers off the American Bar Association of Games Journalists (that totaly exists? Next time he viral markets for Sony, do we fall upon Large Prime Numbers with pitchforks and torches? Hell, Kieron Gillen just wrote a miniseries for Image comics staring a mary sue of himself who looks exactly the same as him and is dead clever and cool and uses records as magic, just like Hellblazer gone hipster. Grounds to be fired out of a big cannon?

    I mean if riding on one’s gender is so taboo, where were you when Jane Pinckard graduated to the pro leauges by tolding a Rez vibrator against her clit and taking photos? Everyone self-promotes, however we can. I don’t see Melissa doing it at the cost of anyone else.

  • http://www.super-combo.com James

    And once again, writing about gaming isn’t a profession. No offical bodies, no offical records, no code of ethics. For me, it’s just a hobby – Super-Combo is updated whenever my lethargy permits, and it isn’t taking me anywhere. Gamelife strikes me as more or less the same thing, just better written.

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